Just one of those days...

Today was just one of those days...lady at the grocery store yelled at me (Lesbian Liberal...ggrr), Jack forgot his lunch (hence the reason I was at the store); Darrin's too busy to come home at night, yet alone take a minute to talk on the phone; Surrey's even more clingy than before; sweating all the time and really ready for Fall; no time to do hair AND makeup; house a diaster, despite my best efforts to clean every day; weight climbing, so on a diet (hence my crabbiness as all I want are peanut MnMs and a large Diet Pepsi); Jack is struggling in school and doesn't want to participate on his soccer team; did I mention Darrin's never home?


I have made a personal goal to read from the scriptures every day. Three weeks later, I am doing better than I ever expected. Today though, I thought I needed something more personal. So I logged onto LDS.org and fell upon Elder Nelson's talk from April Conference: "Face the Future with Faith." I read the following: "Strength comes when you remember that you have a divine nature, an inheritance of infinite worth. The Lord has reminded you, your children, and your grandchildren that you are lawful heirs, that you have been reserved in heaven for your specific time and place to be born, to grow, and become His standard bearers and covenant people. As you walk in the Lord's path of righteousness, you will be blessed to continue in His goodness and be a light and savior unto His people."


As I reread that comment, I stared at the picture below, which sits on our desk at home. It is of Me and Darrin on a ferry to Nantucket just a few short years ago (May 2007). We were out on Cape Cod for a week with Darrin's boss and wife. I remember that day if it was just yesterday. I remember even 11 years ago agreeing to face life's greatest challenges, trials, joys, and blessings with Darrin, not knowing what lies ahead for either of us. I didn't care, as I loved (and still love him) so much, I was just so happy to have found him.


I try not to use "why" in dealing with personal trials or struggles, but instead figure out how to cope and manage through them. Today was just one of those days when I guess I needed to remember my divine nature and that this is all for my good and true everlasting joy.